the eye of truth

so you know with everything I am up to these days I should be headed for a nervous breakdown but I am calmer, cooler, and more collected than I have ever been in my life which makes me wonder—why the hell did I used to freak out over every last lil thing ? I mean, I've always been a busy lil bunny, but I am doing about five times as much as I ever did, and yet here I am chill like a popsicle ..

okay, that's not totally true .. it seems that in place of my previous spazz attacks, my body has developed strange ways of manifesting stress .. instead of yelling and stomping and smoking weed, I now get strange symptoms like .. stress foot .. yes, you heard me, stress foot .. my feet alternately hurt in the most weird way—the top gets tense, it might come on suddenly, last for a day, then disappear like nothing .. then two weeks later it's back for a couple of hours on the other foot .. I mean, it's weird, it's annyoing, but it's not like anyone knows I've got stress foot ..

but now, aii, I have this new thing: the twitchy eye .. that's not a good look .. ever since Monday my eye has been twitching whenever I say something that bothers me on some unconscious level .. now this is not cute because I am paranoid people can see it .. it's been settling down a bit, fortunately, and now feels more like a hum than a twitch .. nevertheless it is the weirdest thing to have my body react negatively to the words I am saying ..

strange how your unconscious mind has these powers to move your body in ways that your conscious mind cannot control ..